?

Log in

by Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
at January 29th, 2007 (03:40 pm)


He swallowed, teeth worrying the inside of his bottom lip until they broke skin, wincing. Eyes studying the bright gold eyes, intense eyes, staring back.

Everything in him just wanted to curl up against him, feel safe for the first time since he'd died, wanted. Protected.

Couldn't stop his mind from pointing out that a mouthful or more of blood than Spike had expected was the only thing holding them together. Only reason he cared.

He didn't know what he felt, just that he was getting tired of fighting himself, tired of fighting the pull, the need. Longing.

"Am I?" voice soft, not rebellious. Needing that assurance.

Comments

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 29th, 2007 09:10 pm (UTC)
Chained Smoking

Sighed resignedly, shaking his head. Felt like something in him was shattering, making him feel like the worst piece of shit on the planet. How could he have thought this was a good idea.

Felt his face shift back, gold eyes still looking at him with something broken, bruised inside them. "Course ya are, luv." He pulled on the arm in his hand, drawing him closer. "C'mere."

Let Lindsey fall against him, gold eyes wide as Spike wrapped an arm around his waist, free hand drifting up to stroke over those ridges again. "Right beautiful you are. Never seen something so damn gorgeous." Petted over every line, groove, fingers tracing over the full lips now filled with razor sharp teeth. "Deadly, stunning, and all mine."

Was going to try to do right by this one, he was. Make sure he did everything he could to make up for what he did. Would always carry it, but hopefully, one day, his actions would heal things. Always swore he'd take better care than that fucker who took over for Dru. Wasn't off to a very good start.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 29th, 2007 09:21 pm (UTC)

Stiffened slightly, eyes big and wary until that soft petting over his forehead, eyes fluttering closed with a soft, stressed sound as they stroked between them.

Felt his muscles tense and release, flood of emotion he couldn't process wracking him at those words, the touch. Approval, acceptance.

Let his lips part slightly as Spike's fingertips traced over them, shivering and pressing in a little closer as a soft purr started in his chest. Every 'mine' going a long way to soothing the bruised feeling.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 29th, 2007 09:37 pm (UTC)
From The Floor

"That's it, pretty thing." Smiled at the purr settling in Lindsey's chest as he kneaded the small of his back, running fingers down his jaw and to that long neck from the night before.

The sudden thought of what he'd find there made his eyes flare wide, flashing gold as he started walking Linds backward into the room. Wouldn't do to go all savage vamp where all the world can see. Which was exactly what would happen as soon as he pulled that collar away.

"C'mon, luv. Wouldn't do to have you catch your death of cold." Walked them inside, shutting the door behind him as he pinned Lindsey against it.

Breath went shallow as he ran his fingers down, pulling the fabric away to find that perfect scar, two semi-circles of sharp teeth. His teeth. His mark.

A growl bubbled up so fast he didn't even hear it for a moment, fingers pressing in where that throbbing pulse should have been as he rubbed over the old wound and vamped out, catching those new golden eyes.

"MINE." Pressed his thumb into the center, catching that mouth with his. Careful not to break skin, not yet. Just a clash of growls and snarling, possessive lips, taking what was his as his hips dug in hard against Lindsey and the flimsy wooden door.

Wanted that bite again, first taste, after the boy's change.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 29th, 2007 09:49 pm (UTC)

Still slightly dazed from the coursing emotions, sensations ebbing and flowing through him, he followed Spike into the room without a protest, though he'd never thought he'd want to go back there.

Gasped and melted against the door as the older vampire..sire whispered through his mind, pinned him against the door the moment it closed. Tilted his chin up, head tilting to the side as if his body knew what he was searching for.

He whimpered, knees going weak with it as those fingers pressed into the sensitive mark, eyes fluttering closed as his hips bucked up into the ones pressing into his own. Let the blonde devour his mouth, claim it, moaning and growling roughly as he ground his hips up against Spike's.

Mewling into his mouth every time his thumb, fingers pressed against that mark.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 29th, 2007 10:06 pm (UTC)
Mood Lighting

Snarled as he ripped his mouth away, grinning delightedly down at his new childe. "That's it, such a good boy."

Dug his fingers into his abs, chest as he shoved the offending shirt between them away, giving him miles of tan, tight flesh at his disposal. Let his fingers idly press and rub at that scar still as he licked his lips, nails scraping ruthlessly down that cool skin.

"Hot as you were, I think I prefer you cool, luv." His nails caught one nipple, a vicious dig of his hips joining it. "Means I don't have to worry about makin' you break."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 01:00 am (UTC)

A harsh, startled sound ripped from his throat, hips jerking up violently into Spike's as his body twisted from the pained pleasure, head falling back against the door with a muffled thud at the rubbing at his throat.

Shuddered at the words, the insinuation along with the harsh pleasure.

"Aw fuck," he moaned, eyes half-lidded, pupils already slightly blown as his hands fall to the older vampire's hips, fingers digging in and holding on as he ground up into him.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 02:35 am (UTC)

Let his duster drop to the floor, growling as a hand goes to one slim hip, the other gripping onto a shoulder as he pushes the demon back, smoothing his face.

"First lesson, little one. Control." Ran his tongue over one brow ridge, groaning at what he was about to do but not entirely sure that Lindsey would be able to control those teeth if he didn't. "Put that away. Let me see those bright blue eyes you've got."

Let up on the pressure between them just enough to try and bring thought back to the boy, watching, waiting for him to obey. Needed to teach this one the ropes early, wanted to make him the perfect little killing machine with a healthy dose of sex on the side.

Seemed like it would be simple enough, now that the boy knew his place.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 03:00 am (UTC)

He shuddered at the soft, cool lick, face tilting up into it as he made a soft sound of pleasure. Blinked slowly at the command, whining low in his throat as Spike moved back slightly.

It was harder than normal to push back the demon, sucking in a sharp breath and shivering as his face rippled, smoothing back to human. Wincing at the demanding pressure behind his eyes.

Licked over his lips, things between them seeming less clear, lines not as cleanly drawn as they were when the demon was at the forefront.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 03:07 am (UTC)
Hello Cutie

"There you go. It'll get easier the more you do it. Be able to do it in your sleep once you get the hang." Palmed the heavy bulge in Lindsey's jeans to ease some of the pressure, giving the boy some time to adjust before he laid into him again.

Darted his mouth down to the bite, something dark inside him screaming to shift, bite, reclaim, but he managed to hold it together, lapping soothingly at the mark as his hand slid in Lindsey's hair. Calming, relaxing.

"Let's move this to the bed, yeah?" Spoke into the wet skin at Lindsey's throat, hand petting down his nape. Wanted to put his childe at ease, give him what he should have gotten when he woke and then some.

Make sure he knew he was wanted.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 03:42 am (UTC)

Moaned deep in his throat, body trembling and melting as his hips jerk into that palm, head falling to the side as his eyes fluttered shut at Spike's mouth almost tender at his bite mark, the hand in his hair.

Felt his knees weaken further at the mention of bed.

Sucked in a shuddering breath as his entire body strained towards the blonde, broken needing sound in his throat sounding loud and frantic to his ears.

Everything inside him purring and warm at the attention, the petting, wanting.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 03:52 am (UTC)
What To Do

Wrapped an arm around his back as the other hand stayed in his hair, meeting those mewling lips with his is an almost painfully soft kiss. Massaged softly, partially carrying the poor vampire towards the bed until he toppled them onto it.

Nursed quiet and slow at those lips, pouring every bit of worth he could muster into it, humming low as he press that naked chest against himself. Settled Lindsey against his groin, rocking slightly, keeping him hot, simmering just under the surface.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 04:37 am (UTC)

He shivered, pressing his hips up and twisting them pleadingly as he sighed and trembled from the soft kisses, his hands sliding along Spike's back and sides.

Fingertips tugging, sliding underneath the thin cotton, wanting bare skin.

Almost basking in the comforting touches, warmth, pressing in to get even closer as he rubs against him, kissing him back just as slow.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 04:47 am (UTC)
Talking

Kept it cool for a bit, letting Lindsey relax into the keeping the demon down. Last thing he needed was his new childe taking a bite out of him if he lost control.

Finally rolled on top of Lindsey, letting the boy slide the shirt up over his head as he straddled his hips. "Should have known, jesus i was should have known..."

So goddamn beautiful. Perfect. He'd grow into quite the killer.

Claimed those swollen lips again, harder this time, as his hand slid between them. Worked open the fly on Lindsey's jeans.

"Gotta have you, luv. Need to feel you..."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 04:58 am (UTC)

Groaned, the sound coming out almost a growl as he jerked his hips up under Spike as he finally slid on top, pressing him down. Let his hands stroke up and down the man's pale sides, back, moaning at the sight, feel of him.

Shivered up against him, pressing his mouth up into the hard kiss, mewling at the feel of the older vampire's hand between them, against his dick. Jerking up pleadingly, unable to remember being so hard, needy.

Caught at those lips with blunt teeth, sliding his hands down to Spike's ass to press him down against him. Grinding up against his hand, hips.

"Please.."

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 05:10 am (UTC)
Chained Smoking

Spike hissed, working his hand inside those jeans to wrap around that thick length, already wet and throbbing for him.

"Gonna take care of you, don't worry, now lift up..." Slid those jeans down those long, muscular legs as he stood and worked his own pants off. Slid up Lindsey's body with his own, letting his cock line up with the one beneath him.

Took those lips again, sucking soft, hips dipping in slow waves as he soaked in the sensation, the itch he'd been feeling for almost a week gone and leaving him alone with this one. Felt so goddamn good.

His childe.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 11:27 pm (UTC)

He shuddered, hips bucking into that cool grip as his hands slid up and down the pale back until Spike stood. Drawing a whining moan in his chest, eyes intent on the other man as he stripped.

Gasped and groaned, eyes rolling back and fluttering closed at the press of velvet hard flesh over his own, hips grinding upwards with a choked sound into the other vampire's mouth.

Let his hands grip at that sleekly muscled back again, fingers digging in.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 30th, 2007 11:35 pm (UTC)
From The Floor

Hummed approvingly at how fervent Lindsey was about touching him, feeling him. Probably would have words once all was said and done, wouldn't blame him, but right now all the man wanted was Spike and lots of it.

Could pull sire shit on him if he got mouthy, the vampire had seemed to have gotten quite a hang of the concept of being under Spike's control and answering to him to an extent. But he didn't want to pull that out at every turn. Would get boring.

And Lindsey he knew would never get boring.

Rolled his hips as he hiked up a leg around his waist, holding it there and stroking down that hard, muscled thigh. "Yeah pet, hold onto me, not goin' nowhere."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 12:04 am (UTC)

Didn't know why all the pain and anger and twisted feelings were gone simply by the touch of Spike's skin but he savored the quiet in his mind, letting the fire in his blood, need in his body take over.

Couldn't get enough skin to skin contact, get enough of touching him. The cool, soft skin, muscles rippling under the surface.

Moaned roughly, head falling back into the pillows as his thigh was gripped and lifted up, around Spike's hip, the sensation, shift in pressure, openness, making him shudder.

Ran the sole of his foot restless up and down the blonde's thigh, palms stroking down to the dip of the older vampire's spine and back up.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 02:21 am (UTC)
Hello Cutie

Sucked on the shoulder, up to the crook of Lindsey's neck as his hips moved like they had a mind of their own. A seperate thing all its own, driving both of them skyward as Spike moved up to nibble at those lips.

God, but this one was amazing. So fucking hot when he was starving for it. Couldn't get enough of those fingers and legs scrambling at him, that head thrown backward into the pillows as he moaned and rubbed.

"Still don't have anything to stretch you out, pet." He sucked two fingers into his mouth, hand slipping between them to find that spot both of them liked so much. He rubbed, waiting until there was just enough give to push his finger in halfway. His patience was giving out slowly but surely.

"Just go with me, relax and push down.."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 03:27 am (UTC)

He whimpered and growled, back arching at that firm rubbing touch, heel of his foot pressing down into the back of Spike's thigh as his hips jerked into those fingers. Moaned and let his eyes flutter closed at the slow slide in of that finger.

Still burned but now it didn't seem to matter as much, his body knew what it wanted and it wanted it now.

Bit down on his bottom lip as he willed it to relax, shuddering as the cool finger slid in deeper, toes curling into Spike's skin.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 03:38 am (UTC)
From The Floor

Shivered from head to toe as he saw Lindsey visibly try to relax, felt his finger slide in so much easier than before. "Jesus..."

Crooked and curled it inside, giving him enough room for two, then three. Wanted to fuck this one hard, harder than when he was alive. And didn't really want to get into the pain just yet. Save that for later, once all the wound-licking was basically done.

Brushed along that spot a few times every once in awhile, making sure he was still aching for, remembering what was in store. Wanted to see what the boy could do the second time around.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 03:55 am (UTC)

Mewled broken as one finger turned to two, then three, body shuddering and rocking up into them. Panted and moaned, eyes tightly closed.

"Christ," he groaned, hips jerking with every brush of fingertips over that spot inside, gasping as his cock jerked against Spike's body, eyes flying open to roll back.

Needed.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 04:06 am (UTC)
Thinking

"That's it, that's it, think you're ready," he pulled his fingers free, wondering if a little blood to ease the way would be ok. But it would be the first whiff of sire's blood the boy would have gotten and he wasn't quite sure that it would be smart.

Settled for a little more spit, precome making him slick enough to work in relatively easy. Hissed at the tight, clenching sheath he was in, head falling back as his eyes fluttered.

"God, yeah so tight," let himself slide in and out from only a few inches in, stroking as he kissed up his childe's neck.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 04:20 am (UTC)

He made a sharp keening sound, back bowing as Spike slid in a couple inches and back out, neck arching into the older vampire's mouth.

Shivered and whimpered, human features melting away at the intense sensation, the feel of his sire inside pushing the demon to the forefront.

Twisted up against him, pleading silently for more as his hands gripped at the flexing, muscled shoulders, down his upper arms, along his back.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 04:32 am (UTC)
Punk Chest

Heard the shift and pop of bone as his childe's demon came back up, lifting his head to get another look at that beautiful face.

God, even better now that he was aching for it, this cold, deadly thing completely at his will. This sire thing might end up being the greatest thing that ever happened to him.

Leaned down, nipping at Lindsey's jaw before fully sheathing himself, growling with blunt, human teeth as he sneered through the intense sensation.

"You're mine, my gorgeous, beautiful Lindsey. Gonna fuck you so hard..."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 04:44 am (UTC)

Tilted his head for the other vampire's mouth as he shuddered, gold eyes rolling back as his sire sank fully inside him. Growled out a soft reply, sound breaking into a stuttered purring whimper at the mix of pleasure, those words and the dull throbbing pain.

Sank his nails into those pale shoulders, unneeded breath gasping in his throat as his other leg wrapped high over Spike's other hip, feet pressing in as he arched up.

"Please.. need it, fuck," he moaned out, one hand sliding up to grip into the blonde hair.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 04:55 am (UTC)
Mood Lighting

Spike snarled and pulled his hips back only to slam them home, loving the howl he got for it. "Damn right you need it. Keep those legs up."

Dug his fingers into that thigh he'd been petting as he set a brutal, hard pace, loving the feel of Lindsey shaking and jerking under him. His cock painted slick trails along both their stomachs as Spike drove into him, those legs wrapped around him making him shiver and fucked him harder than he'd fucked anything in a long time.

Never had to be gentle with Dru, but it was different with a man. And with a male vampire, his vampire, jesus. It was unlike anything he'd experienced.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:02 am (UTC)

He shook, eyes wide and wild, glazed as his body took more than he'd thought possible, every pounding thrust harder, until he felt like he was going to split right in two. Never felt something so fucking amazing.

His feet and thighs dug bruises in the paler skin, nails raking and digging into whatever they could find as raw animal sounds came from his throat, beyond speech, normal noises.

Shook his head mindless, sinking fangs into his bottom lip as it got to be more than he thought he could bear.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:13 am (UTC)
Vamp Attack

The sharp scent of blood, sweet and metallic, hit his nose and Spike shifted almost immediately, bloodlust higher than usual as the smell of his childe's blood sent him surging, hips digging in hard and fast.

Knew he was close, could feel it in the base of spine, ready to spiral out. Never wanted it to end but shit, the smell of Lindsey's blood was too much to bear.

Wanted to shoot forward, claim that mouth, but the sight of that savage demon lost to the pleasure Spike threw on him was so lovely. Not to mention that wasn't where he wanted to get the first taste of his boy.

He knew it would make him come, exploding hard and fast inside Lindsey, but he couldn't deny himself anymore. Darter forward, growling like some wild thing as his fangs sank deep, eyes flashing like they were on fire as he tasted salt and death and possession and Lindsey flooding his mouth, orgasm coming so fast he had to bite back the scream.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:32 am (UTC)

The sudden blinding pained pleasure at his throat sent his back off the bed, heels digging desperately into the backs of Spike's thighs, nails slashing down that shuddering back.

Howled with it, voice raw and pained, as his body wracked painfully tight, shoving him over the edge as he came more intensely than he ever had, harsh and convulsing as it went on and on.

Unbearable as he writhed and sobbed with it, body shaking as if it were falling apart until those fangs left his throat, whimpering at the ebb of the too intense pleasure.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:39 am (UTC)
Chained Smoking

Held Lindsey tight as he shook so hard Spike might have worried that he'd hurt something. Lapped the wound closed, pulling them both slightly onto their sides as his arms wrapped around his back.

Cradled the back of the boy's head, pressing it into his neck. Rubbed and soothed as he pulled him close, almost rocking. Needed to complete the circle, give Lindsey what he had, what his childe needed to seal him to him more securely.

"Drink, pet. Know you've probably been starvin'." Stretched his neck, feeling those fangs nick at him as he ran his skin over Lindsey's mouth. "S'ok, got you. Take what you need, so perfect, lovely childe..."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:50 am (UTC)

Whimpered at that soft stroking palm on the back of his head, feeling something inside shudder and curl up at the possesive, tender touch. Nuzzled blindly into the side of Spike's neck, instincts he hadn't known he had had him mouthing over the cool skin, shivering as something deep inside clicked into place.

This is how it should have been.

How it always should be.

Felt his eyes go wide then flutter shut as his fangs slid through skin the first time, that first mouthful of rick, cool blood unlike anything he'd ever had. Even the night he'd been turned it hadn't been anything like this.

Mewled in slight pain as his body tried to harden at the taste, nothing like the vile crap he'd been living on.

Soft rumbling purr starting in his throat as he shuddered and pressed closer, sucking slow and soft, savoring every moment as he clung tight as if scared it would get taken away.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: January 31st, 2007 05:57 am (UTC)
Thinking

Moaned low as those fang slid in, eyelashes fluttering as he pressed closer.

"That's it, god yes that's it. Such a good boy, so good..." He moaned again, a little louder as he held Lindsey to him, an overwhelming sense of pride and something he'd only describe as possession for the moment coursing through him. Wasn't about to use the word love. Not supposed to be that easy.

But didn't he love Dru? Is that what happened when you made a vampire? An insane urge to care for them, keep them safe, with you always? Would make sense.

That was dilemmas for another time. Right now he just floated in the sensation of his childe sucking, drinking from him, cooing soft and petting down Lindsey's back as he nuzzled at his neck.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 05:54 am (UTC)

He felt warm for the first time since he'd woken up dead, though he knew it wasn't a physical warmth.

But being wrapped in Spike's arms, being petted as his body still shuddered from the almost agonizing pleasure, sucking soft at his throat.. nothing he'd ever experienced had prepared him for the rocking emotions coursing through him, the attachment, need.

Came out of his dazed purring to growl out a whimpering whine, marks at Spike's throat healing over, making him suck harder and worry the skin with blunt teeth.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 06:12 am (UTC)
Thinking

Spike shushed soft, like he would when Dru would have her worst of fits. When she'd see the most mostrously beautiful things in sleep, or even as she lay staring at the ceiling.

Grimaced as Lindsey's fangs pricked and irritated his skin, but he never flinched, never stopped rocking for an instant. "Come on, pet. Gonna be fine. So sorry I left you. Bloody horrid thing I did. Just frink, come back to me..."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 06:20 am (UTC)

He felt something inside crumble at those words, shuddering soft as his fingers clenched into Spike's back, pressing in as if he could crawl inside and never leave.

Sucked until the blood stopped trickling out, tongue rasping over and over the marks, finally just resting his mouth there as he held tight. Body weighed down, leaden and sated, stuttering purr still coming sleepily from his chest.

Never wanted to move again.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 06:25 am (UTC)
Hello Cutie

Wanted his childe strong. Able to hold his own against Angelus if it came down to it. Spike got by on being lithe, quick. Lindsey could do it too.

But he wanted his boy protected any way he could find.

Not to mention Spike's blood would keep things feeling balanced, bonded, complete. Seemed only right to give Lindsey some of what he'd taken.

Rolled more onto his back to drape Lindsey across his chest, shivering at the still mouth at his neck setting every nerve ending singing. "That's it, relax Lindsey. You're Mine, not gonna let anything happen to you."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 06:42 am (UTC)

Made a soft sound of assent, mouthing slow over the pale skin as he melted boneless down over Spike's chest. Still too overwhelmed to bother trying to speak.

Not that there was anything to say. Bound irrevocably as he was to the vampire, he was still almost a complete stranger. What did you say to someone you didn't even know after the intensity of the last week? Last hour?

Too tangled up in emotions and conflicting needs and desires to make some smart reply, though something carried over from his life insisted he should. Somehow didn't think it'd be appreciated at the moment, though, and another newer part of him balked at the idea of upsetting him in any way.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 07:00 am (UTC)
Talking

Held Lindsey close, hand slid up in those thick brown waves. Tried not to let the guilt eat at him, being too stupid and blinded by his need to hurt Angel that he had abandoned his first childe in all his 200 years.

Just held him, shushing soft as his hands stroked and petted. Constant reminder he was still there, that Spike hadn't lost interest.

Hoped one day Lindsey would be able to truly forgive him. And that he'd be able to forgive himself.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 07:12 am (UTC)

Moaned soft, content, shivering from the hand in his hair, the one skimming down his back, soaking up every moment. Was a new feeling, being held by a man. Wasn't anything they'd done last time.

With this man, though, he could get addicted. Felt safe, protected, cared about. More than he could remember ever feeling.

Lost himself in the shushing nonsense, slow strokes, until it suddenly hit just how late it was, everything rushing back as he sat up, glancing towards the window, then the small clock on the hotel nightstand.

"Shit. I have to get back."

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 07:16 am (UTC)
Are You Serious?

Spike's eyes flew open as Lindsey pulled away. "Back? Back where?"

He sat up, confused. It simply didn't make sense. Lindsey was with him, he didn't go anywhere Spike didn't want him to go.

Stood as Lindsey crawled into his pants, hand on his upper arm. "Don't tell me you plan on going back there."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 07:22 am (UTC)

He stopped, something in Spike's voice giving him pause. Left his jeans unbuttoned, low on his hips as he turned, eyes going from the hand on his arm to the older vampire's face.

Eyes confused.

"I live there. All my things are there. I've got.." he paused, really unable to call them friends anymore when they treated him like a trapped wild animal who could tear into them at any time, though they tried to be normal. He didn't have the same emotions he'd felt before for them, either, just remnants of memories of feeling it.

"People who care about me there," he finished.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 07:28 am (UTC)
Out for Blood

All he'd just done. All they'd done. Gone that fast.

Jesus, had hoped it would last through the night, at least.

Let go of that arm fast, nodding slowly as he turned away. "Right. I see. People who care." He tramped down the homicidal tendencies in his blood, wanting to go slaughter them all. Couldn't do that if Lindsey gave a shit about them.

And after all, Spike deserved this. He'd left him to die, after all.

"Guess I'll see you around then. When you feel you have to scratch your itch." Knew it was irrational and that he could simply pulls sire status on the boy, but he didn't want to. Not until they were settled, wounds somewhat healed.

Looked like that wasn't going to happen for awhile, though.

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 04:42 pm (UTC)

His eyes went dark and pained, blunt teeth sinking into his sore, swollen lip. Still tasting both their blood on his tongue.

Half of him wanted to just go, back to the comfortable, the familiar. Remnants of his old self screaming in his head that he didn't owe the man a damn thing, not like he owed the rest of them.

The parts of him that had been so content, happy, warm, sated.. cared for, earlier, were twisting anxiously, wanting nothing more than to soothe him, crawl back into his lap and reassure him that he was the only thing that mattered in his life. The only thing he wanted.

Raking a shaky hand through his touseled hair, his eyes watched the other vampire move, sick feeling deep inside.

"It's not.. they.. had faith in me. They trust me," to an extent, he added silently. "I'd be dead if it weren't for them," he finally said quietly, not wanting to bring that up but unable to give any other reason.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 09:53 pm (UTC)
Thinking

Spike stilled, the truth of that statement hitting home. Angel's little crew. They were the ones who saved him. His childe would probably be dust if they hadn't been there.

God, he just wanted to run chestfirst into a picket fence right now.

"Fuck." Knew it was an honest answer and a good reason. But how was this going to work? He'd rather drink battery acid than move in with his grandesire and Angel probably felt even more violent about that idea.

But the last place he wanted Lindsey to be was there. Wanted him here, with him. Well, maybe not here. Needed to get a better situation if he was worrying about more than him again.

He breathed out slow, heavy, turning to Lindsey to cup the side of his neck. "I get that. Glad they managed to keep you in one piece. Clean up my mess for me." He made a pained face at that, gripping Lindsey's shoulder as he looked down at his feet. "God I'm so fucking stupid."

Pulled it together to look back up, eyes clear. "It was selfish of me. All of it. Even that right there." He motioned to the nasty words he'd just said. "You go on. They'll be expecting you."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 1st, 2007 10:45 pm (UTC)

Felt the sharp ache at his displeasure subside, eyes still wary as he shivered from his touch, teeth worrying his lip as he leaned into that hand. Then felt the demon inside squirm anxiously at the pained sound in Spike's voice, upset that he'd made his sire upset.

Groaned under his breath at all the conflicting thoughts and pressures acting on him, stepping closer slowly. Tenatively placing his palm on Spike's bare chest, dipping his head to nuzzle under his jaw.

"Isn't like I want to go."

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 2nd, 2007 02:15 am (UTC)
Talking

Spike's breath hitched as Lindsey touched him, nuzzled up under his jaw. "God, so glad about that."

Pulled his childe in, not wanting to let go. Wanting to follow him home, stay with him, keep him wrapped safe in his arms. But he knew that to keep him safest, they had to play along. And as much as it made him want to bite into his own arm, the humans had done right by his boy. Had to give them the benefit of the doubt.

Petted along his hair, sighing as he took his arm up between them to catch Lindsey's chin. "Gonna be hell not havin' you here, but I know you have to go."

"I'll work on finding a better place tomorrow, yeah? You'll be able to find me."

Posted by: Lindsey McDonald (exgoldenboy)
Posted at: February 2nd, 2007 03:18 am (UTC)

His body shuddered slightly, everything alright now that Spike was touching him. Didn't want to go but he felt better going now. Now that he didn't think Spike was pissed off at him for leaving.

Though part of him still balked about putting a practical stranger's wishes ahead of his own needs. He ignored that part for the one that insisted his need was to stay there, just as the older vampire wanted him there.

Still, he couldn't just walk away from them.

Worried over his lip again as those fingers caught his chin, eyes searching the blue eyes staring down.

"Thanks," he finally murmured, tilting his head and pressing his lips almost chastely to Spike's.

Posted by: bloodyironspike (bloodyironspike)
Posted at: February 2nd, 2007 03:32 am (UTC)
From The Floor

That soft kiss sent tingles through his spine and he willed himself to let go off Lindsey. Fuck it felt like a part of him was being ripped out at the roots.

"Fuck, don't want you to go. Better leave before I make you stay." He balled his fist on Lindsey's shoulder, growling as he lifted his hands away.

"Tomorrow, pet. Make sure you get away, or I'd have to come after you."

49 Read Comments